The One With The Boxes

We are moving to our new house by the end of next week and this time around... I think I am more composed comparing to when we first move into our current condo. I guess maybe our new contractor/project manager/ID is much better and the tradesmen are also MUCH better.

BUT, being me, I will always be nit picking on every single thing and calling the project manager like 20 times a day! But overall I am not as stressed up...YET...so I hope my claws won't come out... I seriously do not want to hurt anyone :)

Last weekend was basically spend by packing up our lives into boxes. By the end of the 1st day, we have a total of 15 boxes and 5 boxes of shoes and that is not even half of our total junk stuff. I also learned that I have become my mom! A Hoarder!! I keep boxes which I do not know for what use and plastic containers and papers and ribbons and more boxes. 

At this point after 2 days of packing, what is left to pack in my kitchen, and my bags, our clothes and more uncategorized items.I intend to finish all the packing by the end of this week *fingers cross* maybe another 15 more boxes or so we should be done :)

So right now I am gonna go back and start calling my project manager and harass her.

xoxo

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 4

So the wait is finally over. Went in to take my blood test. Waited 2 hours (which seems like an eternity).

Result: Negative - Dr. D told me "it's not good"

That instant, my heart drops....

We are not pregnant.

Somehow, I did not cry...I did feel really disappointed...and I did ask myself if I did anything wrong...maybe I was too tense, maybe this, maybe that... then again the chances of a successful IUI is only 18%.

Now the question is do I want to take a month off doing IUI and continue the following month OR do I want to immediately try IUI again on my next cycle. I am really torn.

I do wanna try again immediately but then we will be moving house and I will be stressed up and what if it is negative again. And if I take a month off, it will be a month of waiting!!What if....what if....

Hubs on the other hand was indifferent... I have not spoken to him about this and I guess I just wanna be sad a while by myself.

Let's wait and see....

COME HOME SCOTTIE!

Missing since 4th Feb 2011, at night

Name : Scottie (male)

Breed : Shih Tzu

Colour : Beige

Age : 6 years old

Area : Bukit Jambul, Penang

Other features:

-Partially blind due to cataract

-Suffering arthritis

-Currently is suffering from ear infection

If you have seen or found Scottie, please contact Lynn on

 04 658 2573

REWARD AWAITS FOR THE SAFE RETURN OF SCOTTIE

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 3

....and the waiting game begins....

On Monday we went in for a scan and finally my follicle is big enough and so the doc prescribe me with Ovidrel for my final jab at night to induce the hatching of my one and only precious egg. Good !! no more Gonal-F injections every morning. Bad... coz the needle is slightly longer than the usual Gonal-F and more liquid means needle in me longer means oucchhh factor increase!

After the Ovidrel jab, I felt feverish and headache and just BLAHHH....not a good feeling for the next 24 hours... I was just tired...maybe emotionally drained...

Yesterday we went for our IUI procedure. Everything went on very well... except Dr. D kept asking me to relax if not my system will reject the washed sperm that was being out into my womb.How the hell do you relax when my bladder is full and it does not help when the nurse is pressing the ultrasound scan on my bladder!! It was over in less than 2 mins but he said it could have been faster if I were to relax! The feeling was weird... I could see from the scan that the "boys" were being inserted! Anyways..I got emo after that!! All the injections and headaches and mood swings and that was it, to prepare for this moment! 

I was then prescribe Duphaston to take for the next two weeks in order to make my "lining" stronger for implantation. So far its been make me pukish and thumping on my head. Not a good feeling but it will ALL be worth it when we get the positive result.

So for the next two weeks, it is a waiting game... thank God I have plenty to do with Chinese New Year around the corner and preparation for moving to our new house.

So let's all pray for good news in two weeks :) and may all our dream for a baby rabbit come true!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 2

So it has been a week since I have been doing home injections to stimulate follicle growth and today we were at Dr. D's office for internal scan of the tiny little eggs.

He found ONE ONLY.

ONE! after all the injections I only have one which is usable. He said it is ok to have one, we don't wanna have multiples! But seriously ONE?? All our hope is on this one egg (which by the way is still not up to the correct size) 

So anyways, since the egg is not big  enough to inseminate, I am in store for another 4 days of injectables, which hubs is so excited coz he likes injecting me! Hopefully in four days time when we go back for another scan, my egg will be ready for some action!

*fingers cross*

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI

We failed in making little Pablo or little Eva while "anni-mooning" in Argentina.

Our fertility specialist Dr. D decided that taking Clomid and timed intercourse may not be suitable for us as we are rushing for time... my biological clock is ticking hard and loud and we wanna have more that one child before we turn 35 and we are already 32!

Yesterday, we discussed with Dr D and we all decided that injectables and IUI is our next step. So for the next 1 week I will self inject with follicle stimulation hormone to make sure my eggs are matured and to induce the release of the eggs then I will go through a series of scanning and blood test for the correct timing for the uterine insemination and let nature takes its course! 

I have to admit, this whole procedure is daunting to me even though it is a treatment that is done everyday by thousands of couple...but I somehow feel afraid... number one... needles! I hate needles and to self inject!!!! *faints*  Secondly, what if it does not work? how many cycles of IUI do I need to endure? and the emotional roller coaster! 

I got a bit emotional yesterday after seeing Dr D. Hubs was back in KL and I was all alone at home and me and my "free" mind started thinking and envisioning the worse.... I was in an emotional messed by myself...it was hard. But today! today is a different day...I feel much positive even today's jab hurts more than yesterday...I feel ok...but emotionally still struggling...not a clue why...blame it on the hormones!

I am praying hard that this cycle is gonna be the ONLY cycle we need to do...and I do not wanna buy sanitary pads for next month!

One Amazing Country

Happy New Year! :)

Our Argentina adventure was a blast FULLSTOP!

I cannot begin to explain how in awe I am everyday I wake up to different views of the country. You have to be there in person, to stand there to see, smell, listen and soak everything in. Words and pictures alone cannot justify the beauty of Argentina.

It's Argie Baby!!

OK... been super duper busy with everything... from finalizing the new house, choosing wallpaper, puring over landscaping plans, prepping for year end reporting, to packing for our adventure holiday and the drama of extended PMS that was filled with anxiety and tears!

Finally! I can breath and finish packing this weekend and go on my 24 hour plane ride to Argentina for 3 weeks of adventure!

So till next year...I bid all of you a Merry Christmas and A very HAPPY New Year!!

xoxo

The One Where I Had Polyps and Endo

I MADE IT!!

I made it out alive from the operating theater! (waves hands in the air jumping up and down) I know very dramatic... try having someone gas you and poke you and burn you and pump air and water into you and God knows what else...before you judge me! :) Yea yea no biggie rite... 

I am so happy I made it through the whole procedure and recovery!

It will be 2 weeks this Friday since I was on the operating table. I spend the last 1 and a half week recovering and am much better now. The 2 key hole incisions my surgeon made in my belly is all healed and all is left is tiny scars. (no I will not get rid of it...reminder that I went to "war").

I am gonna relive the moment of the whole ordeal so I will remember it for life...and I will never wanna go through it ever again! Well it is not that bad, but pre-op period was terrifying for me... the anxiety and the worries on how everything will turn out was basically making me lose sleep and breaking out in cold sweat.

It was a Tuesday when I went to see Dr. D on my 5th day of my cycle and he did scans on me and basically gave me no option. I was to have laproscopy and dye to check the extend of my polyps and endometriosis and to removed them, so that I can double the chance of getting pregnant.

So within 5 mins, I decided with hubs that is the only way to go...so we booked in the operating on that Friday itself... then I found things happening so quickly...and  I was so blur that it did not sink into me that I am about the be operated! I was in an emotional mess from that day till Friday morning!

On the day of op, I woke up at 5am in the morning...I took my coffee, I poo poo, I showered, dressed and admitted myself into the hospital. By then, I was blabbering non stop to hubs and the nurses...asking lots questions and basically being a very annoying bitch. At 8am, the nurse came and shaved my lady bits and dressed me in my op gown... my walk to the operating theater was like a walk of death! But my nurse was the sweetest thing ever, she held my hand and told me everything will be ok...can you imagine

When I was in the prep room at the OT, many nurses there notice I was super scared and anxious... and then came Dr. T my anesthetist, he was one of the nicest doctor I have ever met...he told me he will make inserting my IV needle painless. And he did... he sprayed some freezing stuff on my hand and it went numb and he sang throughout the whole procedure! I am so thankful for him!

After that, I was wheeled into the OT, it was a cold, dim room. Then Dr. D gave me a tour around the OT!! He showed me the operating table, the lights and I was thinking OMG are you serious!!! Then I think about 5 people rolled me on to the operating table and started fixing heart monitors and other gadgets on me... I think my heart rate was beeping off the charts!!!

In the midst of all that Dr. D ask me what I had for dinner, and when I told him I had "Lor Mee" , he and Dr. T broke out in an argument on where the best "Lor Mee" was! At that point I told them that I don't really care literally!! They just laugh at me and told me where I would is my happy place and that I should think of it now as they are gonna "knock"me out... I smiled and told Dr. D, "I am off to Maldives....bye...." (actually according to Dr. D, I did not say bye, I was gone before I could finish the word Maldives..)

By the time I came out, hubs and mom was by my side. But I swear I was in and out of consciousness cause I remember seeing Dr. T and saying bye to him.

Recovery was painful on the 2nd day. I woke up crying and the nurses had to pump me with my pain killers :) I like that feeling :) :) I went home on the 2nd day and basically lying and sitting all day for 1 whole week. 

Mom did a mini confinement for me - food wise and I was not happy when she did not allow me to shower, then I guess she gave up when I told her I cannot take it anymore and I was grumpy and my hair was so greasy!

Neeways, Dr. D told me that he removed my polyps from my uterus and told me I had beginning stage of endometriosis and he settled that for me, and my tubes are looking good. Basically, he did spring cleaning of my womb :) 

The next step is to get pregnant, and he is giving us 3 months window, 1st month natural and if we are not pregnant by then, he is insisting we try IUI. We are hoping it would not get to the IUI stage... *fingers cross*

The One With The Analysis

In less than 24 hours, I will be on the operating table!

I decided to blog to see if it helps me calm my nerves and anxiety.

A lot of people - family and friends have assured and reassured me over and over again that all will be ok...and I will come out from the OT just fine!

BUT , I am freaking out... firstly, I have NEVER in my life gone for any surgery...NEVER...so imagine being out under GA. The thought of it scares me...lets analyse this. 

I am afraid of needles... and they are gonna put needles in me. 

I am afraid that I will be like the movie "AWAKE"...hubs has assured me things like that won't happen...

I am afraid of complications halfway thru the procedures

I am afraid of being alone in the OT with a bunch of mask clad strangers 

I am afraid coz I am not in control of the situation

I am afraid I am gonna cry!! What 31year old woman cries?? 

I am afraid I won't wake up!

Basically, I think I just list down my fear...and it looks pretty trivial ... but to me it is HUGE ass!

Ok, so now let us or rather let me pacify myself a bit.

Needles is nothing...just don't look and I will only feel like fire ant bites. I will not be in an "AWAKE" situation as the anesthetist will be monitoring me the whole time. Complications are minimal...behind all the masked strangers are those who is helping me proceed to the next step of my life - babies - I cannot be in control of all situation...like taking a flight... I am in no control of the plane... so I leave my life to the pilot...and in this case, I will leave my life to the surgeons. So what if I cry in the OT before they knock me out... I WILL WAKE UP!!! and probably cry when I see hubs or my mom or anyone...  SO WHAT!!! 

Wow...that did make me feel better....I must not let my fear eat me up... I must face this fear and it will be a beginning of a braver Lynn.

After all, I have the support of so many people who loves me... even strangers!! I must stay positive throughout this whole procedure...

I will blog soon after my BIG day tomorrow!

Till then... xoxo

The One Where I Stopped Running

I have been running away from this day...and now, I can no longer run.

The date is set, and I am going in for my overdue laparoscopic and hydroscopic surgery this Friday.

Please pray for me that everything will go well...

I am scared shit.

The One Where I Am OFFICIALLY 31!

My 31st Birthday came and gone just like that...and now I am officially in my 30s (being 30 on the dot is not "into" 30s).

As always October is a hectic and full of festivities! First up, hubs and myself celebrated our 4th wedniversary with a nice piece of steak at Hard Rock. Nothing fancy, no hoo-haa, just a nice time. Then it was my BFF from KL getting married... two weeks of celebration!! and in the midst of it my 31st birthday. And before you know it I  was sick like a monkey cow for 2 whole weeks and I am still recovering... Hubs reckon we caught some virus from the hotel aircon system.

And then...I think I am going through some rough patch again with myself. I think last year I was going through the same issues at the same time... oh sheesh... could it be that by turning older, I tend to think too much?

I am too down to write... I lost it d...

So will be MIA for a while to figure things out....

xoxo

The One with Another Life Update

A year ago, I posted in my blog that we would be moving to a larger home... A year later, our larger home is still in the middle of renovation. And our pockets are waaayyyy lighter!! We dipped into our baby fund to "fund" our new home :) Ahh I can hear the disappointed sighs....but money can be earned and safe again... it's not like we are having a baby tomorrow!

Next week would be hectic again, as work travels starts again....doing Hong Kong in one day and Bangkok after... Then it will be October!! I LOVE OCTOBER!! It's the best month on the year...EVERY YEAR!!! This October would be huge...we will be celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary  and my 31st birthday! And to top it up, we will be dressing up for weddings!! LOVE weddings!! and then it's time to get ready to "pindah " house!! Excitement! 

Oh... yes... this weekend is hen's weekend for Ma!! All the ladies will be coming up to Penang!! It's just us girlies and Peter :) 

Dear God,

Please DON't HUJAN!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!

Not this weekend...you can hujan next weekend. 

Promise Peter won't get hurt *wink*

AMEN

The One With Not One But Four and A Half Bags

I am guilty! 

I feel guilty for OVER indulging in my hobby of collecting bags!

On my recent trip to Hong Kong, I contributed to their country's economy and yes, hubs once again was not a happy man cause there is no longer anymore space to store my growing collection of bags. We are actually fighting for space as he is now collecting Star Wars die cast models. To date he has 70 models at home!!! I seriously think he is getting back at me for all my bag purchases in these recent years. Thank GOD we are moving to a bigger place... if not one day either I will find my Chanel in the shoe room or he will find his precious Tie Fighter in the laundry room.

To tempt all the bag lovers, this PS1 in olive green was added into my collection. Isn't it absolutely chic?

Quick One

3 weeks since we came back from Melbourne, and we have been super max busy. The minute we got back, non-stop working, non-stop meetings. And our weekends is filled with family obligations and meeting friends and house renovations and furniture hunting...and now...we are travelling again for 2 whole weeks for more meetings! We have not stayed home for more than 5 days in a row... might as well live out from our suitcases! My fridge and pantry is empty and I don't have time to even blow dry my hair!!!!

I seriously need a break to stay home and DO NOTHING! maybe catch up on my sleep....

I Found Me

It has been 3 months exactly since we came back to Melbourne and tomorrow, we will be heading back to Malaysia. And today, hubs and me officially signed our lives to each other four years ago... my my how time flies! Next thing you know, we will be old and wrinkly...with no gigi.

And when we are back in Malaysia, our schedule will be jam pack!! The next half of the year will be filled with moving houses, weddings and best of all more adventures to kick off 2011! Can't wait!! It will be AMAZING!

What was also amazing was our recent roadtrip to South Australia. 12 days of living out from the car (and some nice villas and apartments)! and going to some amazing places and getting lost on the way. I must say, it was the best time I had with hubs so far....everything was just chill...we did watever we wanted and go where ever we want and there is no internet or mobile service!! Now that is what I call A HOLIDAY...you wake up and you do not know what time it is, you do not know what day it is...and you don't even care! And I always tought that I can be that relax only on a beach holiday, but nah...this was different kinda relaxing, chilling by the fireplace with a glass of wine after a whole day of fun... I surprise myself on this trip...I discover a bit more of myself and I actually faced some of my fears :)

Soccer at UnGODLy Hour

World Cup 2010 just ended 2 hours ago...nope, I did not stayed up for it but I woke up at 7am ( Melbourne time) just in time for the one and only goal of the final!...Poor hubs, he stayed up the whole night and morning just for the game. Anyhoo, I am not any big fan of any kinda of sports, even if it is the hype of the year, and no Paul the octopus does not impress me...I net he taste good on a grill with teriyaki sauce!  BUT I must say....the Spaniards soccer players are HOT!!!!

THE END.

This Site Is Not Dead

Wow...it was like Australia totally swallowed me and I disappeared from the face of the earth! But hey I am back to torment you...my readers with more of my daily BS.

The last two months back in Melbourne was a busy time for us... so I will quickly "brief" on the important events.

My aunt and my cousin sister and her little baby Sarah moved in with me for 1 1/2 months. So you can imagine how busy the house was..One thing that I realized while baby Sarah was here... it ain't easy taking care of a baby!! I have full RESPECT to all stay at home mommies...which lead me to reconsider having a baby.... in between the feeds, you need to do so many things, burp, put baby to sleep, play with baby, change diapers, bath baby and by the time you are done it starts all over again!!! Oh Ohhhh not forgetting nightly feeds and early morning feeds!!SURE mental! But I am sure if I were to have one, I will cope...somehow....

They have all went back to Penang last week and the house is quite again...and I seriously miss baby Sarah! SERIOUSLY...until I smell her clothes (got her nice calming baby smell). Kinda freak me out when I did that!!

Apart from my cute house guest... I had ER drama!!like serious screaming bloody murder drama! So I actually told the story on FB, so I am just gonna cut and paste the drama here...yeala too lazy to recap...

***For some, you have been asking what the HELL happen?!! Read on...

So, being anal queen, I was cleaning the kitchen after dinner, not knowing that i left my only-just-sharpen knife on the dish drainer. So happily *wipe* *wipe* *wipe* then I felt a cold sharp pain and scream!!
The knife ate me, slicing the side of my right hand index finger!

Hubs saw the wound and turn pale, grab the tea towel, wrapped my hand, grab the car keys and told me we have to go to the ER. OH shiet loh! (all this while i was screaming blardee muder! damn pain ok!)

Cousin Gwen followed us to the nearest ER and all the time she was comforting me...but i think my cries scared the shit out of her!

At the ER, when the ER nurse examined my wound, she told hubs its not that bad! WTH!! Not that bad...blood was spewing out..and told hubs "good Luck" ! But she was a nice huge lady...manage to calm me and tell me I look 19 years old instead of 30! Teehheee...

The doc came in ( cheh not handsome one), and wash my wound and glued it with surgical glue and bandaged me and gave me a super painful Tetanus jab told me to go home and remove bandage after 1 week. WHAT?? no painkillers??!! Die loh...thank GOD I got Panadol Rapid... I think I took 8 biji in a day...ODed!

So for one week, I could not do much....my finger was constantly in pain for the first 4 days.

Fast forward 1 week, last nite I had to take out the bandage and ewww, it was not a nice sight. I will leave it to you guys to judge.

The wound is not painful anymore, but my finger feels weird... so yes... that is the story of my drama of the month :)***

 

So ya!

 

So the highlight of my 2010 annual hibernation so far is the Valley Private Hospital ER Drama.

 

Another month or so, we will be returning to Penang... but before that...we will be going on our Great Aussie Drive 2010 ( we are trying to make it a yearly thingy to travel all over Australia by car).

 

This time around, we will be heading west to South Australia for a 10-12 day trip. Everything is set...we will be driving from Melbourne to Warrnambool via the Great Ocean Road and will continue to Penola where they grow the best Cab Sav grapes. Two days after that we will be driving to the mouth of the Murray River and heading onto Kangaroo Island for 4 days of adventure. Adelaide is out last stop.....its gonna be so much FUN!!!

 

OK enuff for now... laters

The One With The Annual Hibernation

We are getting out of the Malaysian heat and back to Melbourne TOMORROW!! 

Yes!

The time has come again for our annual migration/hibernation. 3 months of alone time back in our cosy home on Pinto.

I actually have been super duper busy, with the new house renovation, office dramas, traveling...and what not...until I don't even have time to meet up with my friends! Social suicide if I decide to head down this road.

Anyhoo, our bags are 90% packed ( except for hubby's "ka chang") besides that is throw in the toiletries and lets get a move on!

Excited? Not really, it has actually become a routine for us... the only difference this time is that we will be flying A380... the huge double decked plane!! woohooooo...daddy is jealous coz that is the only commercial aircraft he has never flew in! Ahha! I win!

OK time to finish up my work here in the office and toodalooos...

The One Where Jason Met Margaret

Have you ever cheated in a relationship?

I HAVE!!! 

And they found out about each other...

So yesterday, I went to color my hair, and my colorist, Margaret asked me who cuts my hair now ( she used to cut my hair but then I decided to go back to my old "haircutter")... I casually lied to her and said I got it done in Bangkok or during one of my trips back in KL.

So mah ok loh... in walks Jason ( my "haircutter") and saw me...ahhh shit!!!!!!!!!! You can pretty much figure out what happend next.

My ex-colorist, now "haircutter" meets my now colourist, "ex-haircutter"

They found out I was two timing them with one another. I was caught with foils in my hair! Seriously wanted to dig a whole and bury myself!

I seriously hope they will forgive me and get along and you know what I will still continue with my relationships with them... after all its my hair!