The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Cycle 2 Pt 2

Today I started with the first injection of Gonal F for ovarian stimulation. Hubs did it for me like a pro, but I could not help feeling a wee bit scared. Thank God I did not feel anything except for a tiny tiny pinch...in fact I could not even feel anything. Either hubs is really good or I am getting used to it.

6 more days of jabs before my next ultra sound to see if there are any follicle(s) growing...please let it be more than one follicle. The last time I had one and it did not work...I need a back up... 2-3 follicles please!!!

In the mean time, let's enjoy the Royal Wedding of Willian and Kate... I love weddings....

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Cycle 2

So the AF is here for a visit, and that means I have to make a visit to Dr. D. 

After much discussion with Dr. D, the hubs and I decided that we will try another round again provided that I have to be stress free and happy. So he prescribed me a 7 day shot of Gonal - F  for ovaries stimulation. So back to the needles and emotional roller coaster ride. This time I am ready for ya!! Bring it on!!!

So I gave mom a call and told her about our decision to try again... and she was supportive and all but told me not to blog or tell anyone!! I was like why not? Aiseh, I know she is like pantang and conservative and all, but I think sharing my problems and letting people who wants to know, know about it, to me it's not a big deal. Mom says it would further stress me out. Nah.... by keeping it all vent up inside me and not being able to share WILL even stress me up. To me it's an outlet. If people ask me questions then if I feel like it I will share more, if not I will just share less...it's really all up to me no?

Fertility problems should not be a taboo. But for most Asians family it is... it's like if a person has fertility issues then the family loses face! WTF rite! But a person deserves the rights to keep it hush hush if they choose to. No biggie... it depends on the person.

Oh well, I will definitely continue sharing my journey and one day share this journey with my many many children! OK lets start with one first.

The Art Of Making Babies : Aunt Flow In Town?

After 5 days of Duphaston, I would expect Aunt Flow (AF) to finally visit and get on with our injections and "horror"-mons medication, but nothing happen until today.... I feel a slight backache and a wee bit of cramping... part of me knows that AF is finally here but another part of me is thinking, could it be implantation bleeding and cramping? Things like this really drives me up the wall!! ARGH!  The good thing is that if AF is really here hooray we start treatment immediately, if it is not AF double hooray I might be preggers. So both also will end in something to look forward to. Yes I am trying to console myself and trying to make sense of things in this absolutely "siau" time of my life. So hurry up already, I wanna move on people!! chop chop!!!!

In the middle of my confused body, I went for a trial class for yoga. Apparently, I instantly love it! I love the fact that there is only 5 of us in the class, I love the fact that it is done at dusk in garden with incense and candles. I love the fact that my instructor is so supportive. I love the fact that it is not in a gym or a yoga center. I love the fact that it is so near our house. So I signed up for classes twice a week :) 

Apparently according to some "trying to conceive"  site, yoga is a good way to increase the chances of conceiving just because it is not aggressive as some other intense cardio workout which sometimes might just throw of the hormones and also it is a stress buster.

Ooommmmmm

The Right Approach To Losing Weight?

My doctor has been asking me to lose some weight in order to increase my chance in getting preggers. Many months of exercising and dieting I did not lose weight but gain weight instead.... maybe it's the muscle weight! Watever... And my doctor also told me to chill and relax... *rolls eyes*

So about a month ago, my colleague when on this three month weight management program by Nu Skin - The Right Approach Program (TRA) and she told me about the right way of eating and so on... being me... desperate to try ANYTHING, I jumped on the bandwagon. So far after 2 weeks I am glad to say I have lost 2 kilos from smart eating. I would thought I  would be starving and not get to eat many things...boy I was wrong....very wrong... I still get to enjoy my chicken rice, my hokkien mee, eat in restaurants... cook my pasta dishes :) 

TRA's basic rules:

1. I have to make sure to eat 3 times a day and if I am hungry I have to snack on fruits or veggies (which I have no problems with).

2. I have to eat portions based on the size of my fist and palm.

3. I have to eat fruits, veggies, protein and carbs in this order.

4. Light exercise 3-4 times a week.

And of course I would have to take their all-natural supplements to boost my metabolic rate, and burn and block fats.

Lets just hope that I will keep to this for 3 months *wink*

And to address the issue of me being stress ALL THE TIME. I have found a small yoga class close by to our house and I will be dragging the hubs and mom along for a trial next week. Fingers and toes cross that by eating right, exercise and yoga I will be in better shape and state of mind to have a bun baking in my oven.

The Art Of Making Babies : The Case Of The Missing Egg(s)

Aiseh! 

So I am not 5 weeks pregnant or even near to it!

My egg/eggs went on a holiday! It was confirmed by the doctor that I did not ovulate last month hence the missed period. I am cleared of any thyroid problems and the internal scan shows that my lady bits are all doing well... just a slight problem where there is no ovaries activities!

Where the hell did they go?? Maldives for some sun baking? Paris for some shopping? ( better bring me back a Chanal bag!)  Most likely according to the doctor, I am too stressed up. And as usual, I am told to chill and take things lightly and easy...and not to think about babies! Easy for you to say Dr. D! How am I suppose to not think about babies when I am wanting it so bad!!!

So I was given some Duphaston to bring back my period and hopefully to start injectables and IUI by next week. 

I must admit I was kinda disappointed when the blood test came back negative. So I treated myself to some nice clutches and hold back my tears and look forward positively ahead.

The Art Of Making Babies : A Missed Period Means Many Things

If I was pregnant today I would be technically 5 weeks. IF!

This is becoming very very frustrating. We were suppose to start with our second injectables and IUI this cycle but my aunt flow is not here to visit! and she is late by 16 days. I took a pregnancy test about 2 weeks ago and it read negative and I told myself to wait... and this morning I took another test using the best test kit available in the market and it still read a BIG FAT NEGATIVE! Hellooo I wanna see Positive sign!!

Feeling really "blahhh" I finally called my Dr. D's office and am going in tomorrow to see him. Well, actually I sort of already know why it could be a negative.

1. My eggs forgot to come out meaning I missed my ovulation ( which is super super bad when we wanna be preggers!)
2. I might have a thyroid problem which I am not aware of.
3. I might be actually preggers but my HCG level is not high enough to be detected.

Most probably is numero UNO! I did not ovulate last month! But I am hoping that it could be reason number 3.

The word is HOPE.

The funny thing was when my period was due 2 weeks ago, I did have all the PMS symptoms which is similar to pregnancy symptoms. What the hell is going on people!!!!!!!!???????

I need a to r & r soon before I go bonkers!