Update!

We have finally moved into our new home! But we still got lots to do...oh joy!

I missed the old place A LOT!

One thing I missed at the old place is NO mossies!!!! Seriously, living on landed house you with a garden in a tropical country is no joke... I have a variety of ants crawling, bugs, mosquitoes, spiders and CICAKS!!!! Loads of them! I try to keep them out of the house, so far so good.

I missed the view at The View...yes I missed sitting on the balcony and looking out at the night view of the Penang Bridge and the sea....

I missed cleaning a SMALL house! At this point, I am getting my mom's maid in to clean... I tried mopping 3 floors plus stairs and I was exhausted! And not to mention cleaning the garden, patio, balcony and car porch. Seriously no joke! I have not even started on the windows!!!

I missed proper rubbish collection. I don't think much about who collects my rubbish as long as at the end of the day my rubbish is collected. Well that was when we were living at the View ( the cleaners collect the rubbish TWICE a day!!) Now, I have to chase the rubbish truck and sometimes I have to leave my garbage door open so they can see that I have rubbish in the garbage "room". Oh how exciting *rolls eyes*

So dramatic rite??!!

Despite all that, I am loving the new house. I have a proper huge ass kitchen! (with Astro Beyond!)  Hubs and I no longer fights on who watches what. My bags have proper storage and my laundry room is no longer a corner!
I have a proper dressing room and hubs Star Wars collection is all in a room dedicated for it.

Next up... planning for a house warming and hoping for a baby :)

The One With The Skull

So in love with the latest Alexander McQueen Britannia Punk Box! I love the colour!

Very tempted but no more extra moolah for all unnecessary items :(

Someone give me a big fat bonus please.

The One With The Countdown

The countdown to "moving day" has begun... Many things around the new house is not yet done to my expectations...am I freaking out?... a bit...but I think I will freak out more if by next Friday they do not handover the house to us!

In the mean time, I will go get myself a hot stone massage and a nice long facial and maybe slip in pedicure and manicure this weekend in hopes that my stress level will remain controllable and also before I start "killing" people with my words.

Professionalism in tradesmen in Penang or maybe even the whole of Malaysia is dead. Either that or my expectations are super high.But I guess as time goes by, things will change and please do change for the better. 

14 days left...tick tock...tick tock....

The One With The Boxes

We are moving to our new house by the end of next week and this time around... I think I am more composed comparing to when we first move into our current condo. I guess maybe our new contractor/project manager/ID is much better and the tradesmen are also MUCH better.

BUT, being me, I will always be nit picking on every single thing and calling the project manager like 20 times a day! But overall I am not as stressed up...YET...so I hope my claws won't come out... I seriously do not want to hurt anyone :)

Last weekend was basically spend by packing up our lives into boxes. By the end of the 1st day, we have a total of 15 boxes and 5 boxes of shoes and that is not even half of our total junk stuff. I also learned that I have become my mom! A Hoarder!! I keep boxes which I do not know for what use and plastic containers and papers and ribbons and more boxes. 

At this point after 2 days of packing, what is left to pack in my kitchen, and my bags, our clothes and more uncategorized items.I intend to finish all the packing by the end of this week *fingers cross* maybe another 15 more boxes or so we should be done :)

So right now I am gonna go back and start calling my project manager and harass her.

xoxo

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 4

So the wait is finally over. Went in to take my blood test. Waited 2 hours (which seems like an eternity).

Result: Negative - Dr. D told me "it's not good"

That instant, my heart drops....

We are not pregnant.

Somehow, I did not cry...I did feel really disappointed...and I did ask myself if I did anything wrong...maybe I was too tense, maybe this, maybe that... then again the chances of a successful IUI is only 18%.

Now the question is do I want to take a month off doing IUI and continue the following month OR do I want to immediately try IUI again on my next cycle. I am really torn.

I do wanna try again immediately but then we will be moving house and I will be stressed up and what if it is negative again. And if I take a month off, it will be a month of waiting!!What if....what if....

Hubs on the other hand was indifferent... I have not spoken to him about this and I guess I just wanna be sad a while by myself.

Let's wait and see....

COME HOME SCOTTIE!

Missing since 4th Feb 2011, at night

Name : Scottie (male)

Breed : Shih Tzu

Colour : Beige

Age : 6 years old

Area : Bukit Jambul, Penang

Other features:

-Partially blind due to cataract

-Suffering arthritis

-Currently is suffering from ear infection

If you have seen or found Scottie, please contact Lynn on

 04 658 2573

REWARD AWAITS FOR THE SAFE RETURN OF SCOTTIE

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 3

....and the waiting game begins....

On Monday we went in for a scan and finally my follicle is big enough and so the doc prescribe me with Ovidrel for my final jab at night to induce the hatching of my one and only precious egg. Good !! no more Gonal-F injections every morning. Bad... coz the needle is slightly longer than the usual Gonal-F and more liquid means needle in me longer means oucchhh factor increase!

After the Ovidrel jab, I felt feverish and headache and just BLAHHH....not a good feeling for the next 24 hours... I was just tired...maybe emotionally drained...

Yesterday we went for our IUI procedure. Everything went on very well... except Dr. D kept asking me to relax if not my system will reject the washed sperm that was being out into my womb.How the hell do you relax when my bladder is full and it does not help when the nurse is pressing the ultrasound scan on my bladder!! It was over in less than 2 mins but he said it could have been faster if I were to relax! The feeling was weird... I could see from the scan that the "boys" were being inserted! Anyways..I got emo after that!! All the injections and headaches and mood swings and that was it, to prepare for this moment! 

I was then prescribe Duphaston to take for the next two weeks in order to make my "lining" stronger for implantation. So far its been make me pukish and thumping on my head. Not a good feeling but it will ALL be worth it when we get the positive result.

So for the next two weeks, it is a waiting game... thank God I have plenty to do with Chinese New Year around the corner and preparation for moving to our new house.

So let's all pray for good news in two weeks :) and may all our dream for a baby rabbit come true!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI Pt 2

So it has been a week since I have been doing home injections to stimulate follicle growth and today we were at Dr. D's office for internal scan of the tiny little eggs.

He found ONE ONLY.

ONE! after all the injections I only have one which is usable. He said it is ok to have one, we don't wanna have multiples! But seriously ONE?? All our hope is on this one egg (which by the way is still not up to the correct size) 

So anyways, since the egg is not big  enough to inseminate, I am in store for another 4 days of injectables, which hubs is so excited coz he likes injecting me! Hopefully in four days time when we go back for another scan, my egg will be ready for some action!

*fingers cross*

The Art Of Making Babies : IUI

We failed in making little Pablo or little Eva while "anni-mooning" in Argentina.

Our fertility specialist Dr. D decided that taking Clomid and timed intercourse may not be suitable for us as we are rushing for time... my biological clock is ticking hard and loud and we wanna have more that one child before we turn 35 and we are already 32!

Yesterday, we discussed with Dr D and we all decided that injectables and IUI is our next step. So for the next 1 week I will self inject with follicle stimulation hormone to make sure my eggs are matured and to induce the release of the eggs then I will go through a series of scanning and blood test for the correct timing for the uterine insemination and let nature takes its course! 

I have to admit, this whole procedure is daunting to me even though it is a treatment that is done everyday by thousands of couple...but I somehow feel afraid... number one... needles! I hate needles and to self inject!!!! *faints*  Secondly, what if it does not work? how many cycles of IUI do I need to endure? and the emotional roller coaster! 

I got a bit emotional yesterday after seeing Dr D. Hubs was back in KL and I was all alone at home and me and my "free" mind started thinking and envisioning the worse.... I was in an emotional messed by myself...it was hard. But today! today is a different day...I feel much positive even today's jab hurts more than yesterday...I feel ok...but emotionally still struggling...not a clue why...blame it on the hormones!

I am praying hard that this cycle is gonna be the ONLY cycle we need to do...and I do not wanna buy sanitary pads for next month!

One Amazing Country

Happy New Year! :)

Our Argentina adventure was a blast FULLSTOP!

I cannot begin to explain how in awe I am everyday I wake up to different views of the country. You have to be there in person, to stand there to see, smell, listen and soak everything in. Words and pictures alone cannot justify the beauty of Argentina.

It's Argie Baby!!

OK... been super duper busy with everything... from finalizing the new house, choosing wallpaper, puring over landscaping plans, prepping for year end reporting, to packing for our adventure holiday and the drama of extended PMS that was filled with anxiety and tears!

Finally! I can breath and finish packing this weekend and go on my 24 hour plane ride to Argentina for 3 weeks of adventure!

So till next year...I bid all of you a Merry Christmas and A very HAPPY New Year!!

xoxo

The One Where I Had Polyps and Endo

I MADE IT!!

I made it out alive from the operating theater! (waves hands in the air jumping up and down) I know very dramatic... try having someone gas you and poke you and burn you and pump air and water into you and God knows what else...before you judge me! :) Yea yea no biggie rite... 

I am so happy I made it through the whole procedure and recovery!

It will be 2 weeks this Friday since I was on the operating table. I spend the last 1 and a half week recovering and am much better now. The 2 key hole incisions my surgeon made in my belly is all healed and all is left is tiny scars. (no I will not get rid of it...reminder that I went to "war").

I am gonna relive the moment of the whole ordeal so I will remember it for life...and I will never wanna go through it ever again! Well it is not that bad, but pre-op period was terrifying for me... the anxiety and the worries on how everything will turn out was basically making me lose sleep and breaking out in cold sweat.

It was a Tuesday when I went to see Dr. D on my 5th day of my cycle and he did scans on me and basically gave me no option. I was to have laproscopy and dye to check the extend of my polyps and endometriosis and to removed them, so that I can double the chance of getting pregnant.

So within 5 mins, I decided with hubs that is the only way to go...so we booked in the operating on that Friday itself... then I found things happening so quickly...and  I was so blur that it did not sink into me that I am about the be operated! I was in an emotional mess from that day till Friday morning!

On the day of op, I woke up at 5am in the morning...I took my coffee, I poo poo, I showered, dressed and admitted myself into the hospital. By then, I was blabbering non stop to hubs and the nurses...asking lots questions and basically being a very annoying bitch. At 8am, the nurse came and shaved my lady bits and dressed me in my op gown... my walk to the operating theater was like a walk of death! But my nurse was the sweetest thing ever, she held my hand and told me everything will be ok...can you imagine

When I was in the prep room at the OT, many nurses there notice I was super scared and anxious... and then came Dr. T my anesthetist, he was one of the nicest doctor I have ever met...he told me he will make inserting my IV needle painless. And he did... he sprayed some freezing stuff on my hand and it went numb and he sang throughout the whole procedure! I am so thankful for him!

After that, I was wheeled into the OT, it was a cold, dim room. Then Dr. D gave me a tour around the OT!! He showed me the operating table, the lights and I was thinking OMG are you serious!!! Then I think about 5 people rolled me on to the operating table and started fixing heart monitors and other gadgets on me... I think my heart rate was beeping off the charts!!!

In the midst of all that Dr. D ask me what I had for dinner, and when I told him I had "Lor Mee" , he and Dr. T broke out in an argument on where the best "Lor Mee" was! At that point I told them that I don't really care literally!! They just laugh at me and told me where I would is my happy place and that I should think of it now as they are gonna "knock"me out... I smiled and told Dr. D, "I am off to Maldives....bye...." (actually according to Dr. D, I did not say bye, I was gone before I could finish the word Maldives..)

By the time I came out, hubs and mom was by my side. But I swear I was in and out of consciousness cause I remember seeing Dr. T and saying bye to him.

Recovery was painful on the 2nd day. I woke up crying and the nurses had to pump me with my pain killers :) I like that feeling :) :) I went home on the 2nd day and basically lying and sitting all day for 1 whole week. 

Mom did a mini confinement for me - food wise and I was not happy when she did not allow me to shower, then I guess she gave up when I told her I cannot take it anymore and I was grumpy and my hair was so greasy!

Neeways, Dr. D told me that he removed my polyps from my uterus and told me I had beginning stage of endometriosis and he settled that for me, and my tubes are looking good. Basically, he did spring cleaning of my womb :) 

The next step is to get pregnant, and he is giving us 3 months window, 1st month natural and if we are not pregnant by then, he is insisting we try IUI. We are hoping it would not get to the IUI stage... *fingers cross*

The One With The Analysis

In less than 24 hours, I will be on the operating table!

I decided to blog to see if it helps me calm my nerves and anxiety.

A lot of people - family and friends have assured and reassured me over and over again that all will be ok...and I will come out from the OT just fine!

BUT , I am freaking out... firstly, I have NEVER in my life gone for any surgery...NEVER...so imagine being out under GA. The thought of it scares me...lets analyse this. 

I am afraid of needles... and they are gonna put needles in me. 

I am afraid that I will be like the movie "AWAKE"...hubs has assured me things like that won't happen...

I am afraid of complications halfway thru the procedures

I am afraid of being alone in the OT with a bunch of mask clad strangers 

I am afraid coz I am not in control of the situation

I am afraid I am gonna cry!! What 31year old woman cries?? 

I am afraid I won't wake up!

Basically, I think I just list down my fear...and it looks pretty trivial ... but to me it is HUGE ass!

Ok, so now let us or rather let me pacify myself a bit.

Needles is nothing...just don't look and I will only feel like fire ant bites. I will not be in an "AWAKE" situation as the anesthetist will be monitoring me the whole time. Complications are minimal...behind all the masked strangers are those who is helping me proceed to the next step of my life - babies - I cannot be in control of all situation...like taking a flight... I am in no control of the plane... so I leave my life to the pilot...and in this case, I will leave my life to the surgeons. So what if I cry in the OT before they knock me out... I WILL WAKE UP!!! and probably cry when I see hubs or my mom or anyone...  SO WHAT!!! 

Wow...that did make me feel better....I must not let my fear eat me up... I must face this fear and it will be a beginning of a braver Lynn.

After all, I have the support of so many people who loves me... even strangers!! I must stay positive throughout this whole procedure...

I will blog soon after my BIG day tomorrow!

Till then... xoxo

The One Where I Stopped Running

I have been running away from this day...and now, I can no longer run.

The date is set, and I am going in for my overdue laparoscopic and hydroscopic surgery this Friday.

Please pray for me that everything will go well...

I am scared shit.

The One Where I Am OFFICIALLY 31!

My 31st Birthday came and gone just like that...and now I am officially in my 30s (being 30 on the dot is not "into" 30s).

As always October is a hectic and full of festivities! First up, hubs and myself celebrated our 4th wedniversary with a nice piece of steak at Hard Rock. Nothing fancy, no hoo-haa, just a nice time. Then it was my BFF from KL getting married... two weeks of celebration!! and in the midst of it my 31st birthday. And before you know it I  was sick like a monkey cow for 2 whole weeks and I am still recovering... Hubs reckon we caught some virus from the hotel aircon system.

And then...I think I am going through some rough patch again with myself. I think last year I was going through the same issues at the same time... oh sheesh... could it be that by turning older, I tend to think too much?

I am too down to write... I lost it d...

So will be MIA for a while to figure things out....

xoxo

The One with Another Life Update

A year ago, I posted in my blog that we would be moving to a larger home... A year later, our larger home is still in the middle of renovation. And our pockets are waaayyyy lighter!! We dipped into our baby fund to "fund" our new home :) Ahh I can hear the disappointed sighs....but money can be earned and safe again... it's not like we are having a baby tomorrow!

Next week would be hectic again, as work travels starts again....doing Hong Kong in one day and Bangkok after... Then it will be October!! I LOVE OCTOBER!! It's the best month on the year...EVERY YEAR!!! This October would be huge...we will be celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary  and my 31st birthday! And to top it up, we will be dressing up for weddings!! LOVE weddings!! and then it's time to get ready to "pindah " house!! Excitement! 

Oh... yes... this weekend is hen's weekend for Ma!! All the ladies will be coming up to Penang!! It's just us girlies and Peter :) 

Dear God,

Please DON't HUJAN!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!

Not this weekend...you can hujan next weekend. 

Promise Peter won't get hurt *wink*

AMEN

The One With Not One But Four and A Half Bags

I am guilty! 

I feel guilty for OVER indulging in my hobby of collecting bags!

On my recent trip to Hong Kong, I contributed to their country's economy and yes, hubs once again was not a happy man cause there is no longer anymore space to store my growing collection of bags. We are actually fighting for space as he is now collecting Star Wars die cast models. To date he has 70 models at home!!! I seriously think he is getting back at me for all my bag purchases in these recent years. Thank GOD we are moving to a bigger place... if not one day either I will find my Chanel in the shoe room or he will find his precious Tie Fighter in the laundry room.

To tempt all the bag lovers, this PS1 in olive green was added into my collection. Isn't it absolutely chic?

Quick One

3 weeks since we came back from Melbourne, and we have been super max busy. The minute we got back, non-stop working, non-stop meetings. And our weekends is filled with family obligations and meeting friends and house renovations and furniture hunting...and now...we are travelling again for 2 whole weeks for more meetings! We have not stayed home for more than 5 days in a row... might as well live out from our suitcases! My fridge and pantry is empty and I don't have time to even blow dry my hair!!!!

I seriously need a break to stay home and DO NOTHING! maybe catch up on my sleep....

I Found Me

It has been 3 months exactly since we came back to Melbourne and tomorrow, we will be heading back to Malaysia. And today, hubs and me officially signed our lives to each other four years ago... my my how time flies! Next thing you know, we will be old and wrinkly...with no gigi.

And when we are back in Malaysia, our schedule will be jam pack!! The next half of the year will be filled with moving houses, weddings and best of all more adventures to kick off 2011! Can't wait!! It will be AMAZING!

What was also amazing was our recent roadtrip to South Australia. 12 days of living out from the car (and some nice villas and apartments)! and going to some amazing places and getting lost on the way. I must say, it was the best time I had with hubs so far....everything was just chill...we did watever we wanted and go where ever we want and there is no internet or mobile service!! Now that is what I call A HOLIDAY...you wake up and you do not know what time it is, you do not know what day it is...and you don't even care! And I always tought that I can be that relax only on a beach holiday, but nah...this was different kinda relaxing, chilling by the fireplace with a glass of wine after a whole day of fun... I surprise myself on this trip...I discover a bit more of myself and I actually faced some of my fears :)

Soccer at UnGODLy Hour

World Cup 2010 just ended 2 hours ago...nope, I did not stayed up for it but I woke up at 7am ( Melbourne time) just in time for the one and only goal of the final!...Poor hubs, he stayed up the whole night and morning just for the game. Anyhoo, I am not any big fan of any kinda of sports, even if it is the hype of the year, and no Paul the octopus does not impress me...I net he taste good on a grill with teriyaki sauce!  BUT I must say....the Spaniards soccer players are HOT!!!!

THE END.